Thursday, January 9, 2014

New Year New Goal.

What is Pinterest telling me? That I should organize my pantry and my fridge with individual labels for every single thing, that I should be making all of my cleaning supplies and laundry detergent, that I should have color coded, sticky note filled school notes, that I should alphabetize basically everything I own, that I should be making incredible gourmet meals but not just that taste good but making animals and crazy designs out of every food I make because a regular sandwich just isn't pretty enough, that I should have matching sports bras and shoes when I go to the gym because when I am working out I am really trying to get people to notice the nasty sweaty mess I am, and that I should definitely make decorations for every holiday because really who doesn't need labor day decorations? Don't get me wrong, I LOVE Pinterest, I LOVE crafts but I no longer can compare myself to it or frankly to anyone around me. For the past little while I have felt in a slump. Ya know just when you feel like you are barely getting by at everything? I feel like the greatest part about the new year is new resolutions, making not only bad days but even your good days better.  I was just like everyone else… Had high hopes for my resolutions; hit the gym, eat healthy, staying very on top of school, become this awesome perfect wife with a spotless home and gourmet dinners every night, honestly I had this "dream" in my mind of how perfect I would be and become the 'I don't know how she does it' type of girl.  I felt like I was trying but I always felt like I was failing.  Do you know what I realized?  I can't do everything.  I can't be perfect.  We are all surrounded by those people and see the people on Pinterest who seem to have the perfect life and I have learned they don't.  They may have perfectly spotless homes and gourmet dinners and a rockin' body and do you know what… I am no longer jealous.  I don't have a perfectly organized home but I have fun instead.  I choose to spend my days with my husband, friends and family instead of living at home cleaning… alone and unhappy.  Some people spend there days at the gym and eating trees and crap, I would rather sit around and eat a sugar cookie to be completely honest with you.  Some people may find their joy in that, but I have to realize I am not one of those people.  Instead of beating myself up about not doing everything how other people or even pinterest tells me I should live my life, I am choosing to live it in the ways that make me happy! I cannot multitask my feelings, if I am stressed about stupid things then my mind and my feelings are not focusing on what they should.  Stefan needs a wife that is supportive, that he can laugh and have fun with,  a wife that loves him unconditionally, not a wife caring about what someone is going to think when I tell them what I did all day. Should I keep a cleaner house, cook more meals, study more often, and eat healthier? Yes.  I am going to try but if I don't, it's not worth beating myself up over anymore.   I am not perfect! But I can be proud of that! We were not sent to this earth to do those things. We were sent here to learn and know Christ, and I can't do that when all I am thinking about is worldly things. My resolution this year is simply to focus on the things that really matter.

1 comment:

  1. I LOVE this!! Everyone should do it. My sister and I were just laughing about how everyone (naturally) only writes the awesome things they do and not the crappy ones and it makes everyone else feel inadequate. It's just the way it is, but you definitely have a choice to feel inadequate or realize no one is perfect! Thanks for the reminder:)